Sunday, March 13, 2011

Starting to get bored

For almost a year now, I've been seeing a married German man. While I appreciate his charming accent, willingness to pick up the tab and gentle manner, I'm starting to get bored. I love knowing that I can make suggestions to do stuff and he always says yes but I hate having to work within the schedule. Two days out of the week we spend the night together and act like teenage lovers but in exchange for that time together, I have deal with phone calls from the wife, conversations about the wife and the kid. In general I don't like to date or be involved with men that have kids and/or a wife- it's just an annoyance I don't want to deal with. Our plans have been canceled on more than one occasion due to the kid- so fucking annoying.

So for the last few weeks I've been thinking about telling Germany that our time together is over. Now understand that I'm no silly girl who thinks he's going to leave his wife for me. I have never thought that but I just didn't realize how much of a drag it would be to deal with someone who's not truly free. I'm not sure if now is the right time, although I'm sure there's no good or easy time to say goodbye but I need to make a change. I should also work on getting some guys lined up so I can follow a great piece of advice about break ups: the best way to get over someone is to get under someone new.