Merry Xmas- Happy New Year

Christmas is one of my favorite holidays and this year, it was especially good. Terry and I had a special guest over on Xmas eve and he definitely made my spirit bright. Hands down this guy was the best looking, best body and best lay out of all the guests. He even asked about when he could return before he left the house. Merry Christmas!

Now that Xmas is over, the next holiday is New Year's Eve. I'm not really a fan of NYE; it's totally overrated. There's the expectation that you have to have a great time and when you don't, you feel like a loser. Add to that, the fact that people who don't drink are getting drunk and people who drink are getting smashed. Leaving the house on NYE doesn't make much sense unless you're going somewhere you can stay. That's not to say that I haven't had fun on NYE in the past. I had a great time in Vegas, where me and my best friend picked up a Croatian guy and stayed out with him until 8am the next day. And on my first trip to London, I was there for NYE and me and my bff made out with strangers and even the same guy.

Right now I don't have any plans for tomorrow-NYE. It doesn't help that I'm totally broke, so I can't afford to do anything anyway. Since Terry is basically my boyfriend, I asked him what he wanted to do for NYE. He said that he was planning on spending NYE in his basement. What the hell?! The basement? I told Terry I didn't want to spend NYE in his basement. He asked why now? And then proceeded to tell me that he always did that on NYE. I suggested coming to my house- it would definitely be more fun. He was skeptical but not against it. We'll see what happens.

Houston, I think we have a problem

Now that Terry is full of joy- maybe it's the season- and we're getting along great, a small problem has come up. For the past two months, we've been having someone extra join us in the bedroom (see T is for Threeway). I wasn't into it and I resisted at every turn. But now that I've done it a few times, I'm starting to like it. And this is where the problem comes in.

When picking the guys who join us, I usually pick someone who is everything that Terry isn't: young, great body, super easy on the eyes and hung like a horse. That's not to say that Terry doesn't have his good qualities. He's mature, has a decent body, sexy gray hair and average length. I could probably do better but he's far from being the worse I could do. But these "special guests" are just a thousand times better than Terry. It's like I finally get to have my cake and eat it too.

I'm not sure how to deal with the fact that I'm starting to enjoy our special guests a little too much. As a person who likes sex, I've enjoyed the act of being with the special guests but right now we have two that I would like to see more often. Both of them come via CL; Matt the grad student and Rob the physical trainer. They have a few similarities: great bodies, great faces and great dicks. My real problem is how do I tell Terry that I want to see these guys again without him getting jealous or feeling hurt?

I know he'd love it if I said I want to see them again- he loves watching me but he's not going to want to see too much excitement on my face. After our first special guest, he confided that he worried that I might be having too much fun. I guess I'll just try to be interested but not too interested.

Why are you being so nice?

Sorry about the delay in updating the blog. With the holiday season and school coming to an end, I've been a little distracted.

One thing that has happened is that Terry has been exceedingly nice. Almost too nice. Which has got me wondering "why are you being so nice?" I've been seeing him everyday and he's been full of warmth. Naturally I took this to some of my friends. The answers ranged from "it's about time" to "that's cuz' he's your boyfriend". There's no real way to ask someone why their being nice. It kind of defeats the purpose. I like to think that Terry has finally realized that he can't do better than me. I mean really; I'm fun to be around, easy on the eyes, like to put out and will blow the whole day away watching football.

While I've been wondering about Terry's niceness, I've been getting text messages from a kid that I hooked up with one time. He has been texting me like his life depends on us getting together. I keep telling him I'm not available and he just won't hear it. It's always "what about tonight? tomorrow? next week?" I don't know if I can keep being busy. I wouldn't mind seeing him but he has too many "special requests" for me to really consider going. Sometimes I want to tell Terry, "hey dude you better keep being nice cuz' there are others waiting to take your place". But that's not very nice, so I haven't said anything. I mean he's being nice, so shouldn't I?